poem 4/12
Backyard Princess
And in the days ago when,
as the onion grass began to start again,
the whole green began again in the yard, the
Spring began on the floor of the world,
(came out of hiding, out of nowhere!)
on the new buds of old trees,
I ran on and on with bare feet.
All the Spring months, all season my birthday,
all of a day and a yard all to myself:
my whole life.
I swung over the lawn through the Spring;
the swing and my feet flapped like a
bird wing while the fullness of my ratty mane
flowed against and with the air, the cool
current I created, there was no guard
to stop my fall, only the gravity, only the push
and pull.
And my girl-thoughts, “I will remember this moment for-
ever” (I had decided I could take pictures
with my whirling mind – if I blinked hard enough the
pictures of time would last and I remember
those days, even now:)
The blooming dogwood dreaming
of its own death, (I watched it die years later;
they chopped it down), there were green
vines wrapping wooden fences up in their long arms,
fine daffodils like yellow purséd lips,
forsythia bushes bursting forth,
the earth’s
golden frizz, a buzz of bees,
and a lone rose tangle near the
rotting shed
(that’s gone
now too);
The whole of the yard, my palace, my life;
the dogwood branch, a throne
I perched upon and surveyed the wild
Kingdom of the Yard, for just a short time
ruling over the lawn, for a short while
in charge of everything that moved or grew.
Comments
It makes me feel a little like I do when I read faulkner, like there's something that was there described in delicious detail, which I'll never know myself, which, of course, sets me deep in the furrows of longing. Could the recognition of one's lost childhood be the greatest human sadness?